Normal Love

I found you in a dream,
You who followed my marriage through
to it's death throughs
A shadow, not of you, but of the idea that I could love someone
not my husband.
A shadow I didn't understand because without you
there would have been no marriage to him.
He only wanted me because I wanted you, I think.
The games of youth and passion.
The wanting most what you cannot have.

Is that true love? No.
Is that normal love? Yes.
Is this death of the marriage normal love? Yes.
Is this death of the marriage true love? No.

So where do I go now that I found you
from the dream?
I found you in your world,
as messy as any nightmare,
as joyous as any heaven.
I sit in the window and watch. 
Watching you dream,
calling out encouragement
Hoping for a chance
to step into your heaven.
Is that true love? No.
Is that normal love? Yes.